I'll Hurt the Show...

So I found something I probably wasn't supposed to find, but I did. When you see your name on paper, you can't help but read it. Why am I mentioned? Once I saw who was involved in the exchange of words, I knew what it was about.

I got booked for a show a while back, and apparently, unbeknownst to me, it upset a few people. They felt I was not worthy of a spot in the show. The spokesman for the group said, "Kelly... has not earned her shot...and it's going to hurt your show." "...Kelly McCarron is not ready for a Punchline audience. I promise you...she will hurt the show."

Why say my whole name? That puzzled me. You've already established that I'm the one who you're talking about. Adding my last name- that makes it, in the eyes of the writer, a cold concrete fact. I found that interesting.

"...(booking Kelly) it's foolish, it put a SEVERLY bad taste in the mouths of others..."

That's fine. Really. I've known about this for a while now; though seeing the words on paper- that's a bit different. I was really mad that I had let this get to me. It didn't hit me til about a month after that show happened. It wasn't what was said, have your opinions, it was that I let my performances be affected. Everyday I'm getting better. No one can deny that.

By the way, I had a good set that night, and a lot of the audience came to me afterwards and told me they enjoyed it.

Please, continue to root against me. Tell me I can't do it. Let me know what you really think.

It makes me more determined.