Are you kidding me?!

I was going to title this particular blog "Seriously?!" but then I realized... that's the name for the entire blog!

If you look at a girl's romantic history, or in my case... guys I really like... you start to see a pattern with the guys. Some girls like bad boys. They feel like they can change them, or they like the excitement. Unfortunately, some girls always fall for the abuser. Some girls fall for guys that are just completely the opposite of themselves.

Me?

Thanks for asking.

In the past couple months, I've realized that I fall for the guys that are already in committed relationships! WHAT?! Yes. And this goes back a long way too. A few years ago, a guy I worked with, I absolutely adored. We joked around, we had fun together. One day, his girlfriend's on the phone. How was it that I was the only person in the world to not know that he had a girlfriend of many years?

Even the first guy I was um...intimate with, (this is weird to talk about, but whatever!) yeah, 2 weeks after I moved back to California, "yeah, my girlfriend doesn't mind that I mess around."

WHAT!? REALLY?! SERIOUSLY?!

Thanks for making me feel like a whore.

Lately its been every guy I meet, and as soon as I think, "hey, he's cute, we're kinda flirting here..." someone else HAS to ask him, "So how's your girlfriend?"

NOOOOO!!!!

I don't know what it is about me, but I can always manage to find myself a man that's not afraid to commit. He's just already committed to someone else.

Have you ever been in that situation and you meet the girlfriend (or boyfriend)? It's a no win situation because if you like her, it's like, "Damnit! She's fantastic! I can't hate her. She's adorable!"

or if you don't like her, "She's a bitch! Why is he wasting his time with her? I am angry with the way this situation has played out. How can a beezy like that be with him?"

For me, the girlfriend is usually awesome. I think it's worse not being able to hate them, because you want to throw them onto the train tracks (wait, are there any train tracks around?) but instead you go out for coffee and go to the bathroom together.

If you read my last post, I guess this ties into it. I have stopped looking. I think I've had too. I am so tired of meeting the girlfriend. Maybe I'll just assume that everyone I meet is already taken.

"hey Kelly, my friend is really great, you two would really hit it off."

is he single?

"of course"

sorry, it's probably not going to work out. I'm usually only attracted to guys that already have girlfriends. what's your boyfriend doing later tonight?

seriously?!